TELE-SAUR-TISE! ((((:

1/23/2010 05:21:00 PM

Saturday, January 23, 2010

hello, i'm back (:
i'm typing this blog with a heavy heart
i got my heart broken so many times, i start keeping track
it's so confusing, complicated, tiring, boring and etc.
so tiring to wait for you to talk to me :/

the thought of going to work next week makes me feel so sick in the stomach.
how i wish i've never met you or talked to you.
oh well, i didn't talk to you first, you did.
we smile :D
okay, enough about you here.

motivator is back ((((:
he's still the same towards me, always nice, smiling and waving to me (((:
we, both, must be shocked that we'll meet again.
somehow i think that it's really a waste not to go to you and greet you when i saw you at zara last week. you were too fast for me. wasted :/
at least now i see you everyday. we'll talk more, really! (:

you reminded me of events that happened last year (:
now,you know (: i want to see you everyday,every minute (:
your smile melts my heart :DDDDD
now i'm going on and on talking about you.
should stop and save it for my own safekeeping (: <3

alright, back to you.
i just hate talking about you because you're a heartbreaker.
i don't know if you know i'm talking about you
& i don't even know if you ever come to my blog.
love is an illusion-that's what i saw on your profile.
love ain't an illusion :/ if it happens, it just happened.
how would you know if love is an illusion when the feelings just come naturally without you even realising it, like me.
after that day, i think i'm blind; just as blind as you.
i don't see the thrill in making others feel so confused and mind in a whirl and a heart full of questions. if you think it is, then it's your problem!
why do i sound so angry? it's not as if we're related in any way. we're merely, colleagues. alright, of you say it. i don't even think we're friends. even if you think we are, i wouldn't want a friend like you who keep his friend in confusions and full of questions, unanswered.

i just want to be far away from you, lest i get hurt.
having this kind of feeling sucks. it just won't get me anywhere. not here, not there. stuck.
i hope you get struck by lightning for doing this to me (:

i really love you
i really miss you.
i will see you soon (:
i just can't wait to see and meet you.

now i feel as if i'm procrastinating.
first, i want. next, i do not want.

I LOVE YOU!!! (:
<3
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1/11/2010 11:52:00 PM

Monday, January 11, 2010

i miss you very much, but what can i possibly do? ):
i got so tired of you sometimes. you din't even bother to reply my message. what's the point :/
i think you know i'm refering to you. yes, you ):

sometimes i feel that you make me feel worse than better.
you didn't bother to try.
sadly, i'll wait for you.
if not, i'll slowly let you go again. if that's the best option. i'll see you less after this. i hope i won't let you get in my way.
i pray that i won't miss you, think of you or love you secretly.
because i know you won't ):

sucks sucks sucks. i just have to get use to it and go ):

goodbye. iloveyou (:
<3

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1/10/2010 02:59:00 PM

Sunday, January 10, 2010

HELLO babies (:

just when i wanted to commit myself to you, i had to let you go unwillingly. that's because i don't see us connecting. i think we just couldn't connect. i thought we feel the same way for each other but i think i was wrong. it just went dry when work ends ): boo. hence, the sadness. i thought i'll see you today, but nevermind since you didn' reply me :/ i got tired of asking already. i shall not force you. we'll meet soon (: but i'm SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO SEE YOU. i feel your warmth when we hugged. it felt great to see you most of the time at work, even if you're not at the back. your smile makes me feel great. your touch makes me rather speechless. when we kissed,it makes me more speechless. now i feel so empty. i don't feel like seeing you already. ))))):
i'm sorry we didn't talk the other day ): i just think it's no point talking to you when i can't make my feelings shown and known to you.

alright, results will be out tomorrow. i don't know how i'm feeling now. my brain is hibernating. i've been trying to keep myself busy everyday even if i'm penniless (: after pay day i've been going out. hehe. friday i met RON!
after so long!!! at last.
my brain is not functioning now. sucks. tomorrow, first person who'll know my results will be, i'm not so sure either.

iloveyou, ____!
& i'll miss you.

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