Seems like I'm not needed and wanted in thy group anymore. Why do I still go with them then? They are like among themselves and I'm the odd one out who has no partner and not talking. It's like k is with t, and, L is with I. So you tell me now, do I even fit in there? Sigh. Then L let them view her wall except me :/ how pathetic can I be? Such a loser. Probably this is my retribution for bastard-ing my own friend previously. But, if you must know, I really did it put of anger and I've apologized. No point explaining or anything. It makes no sense if he still thinks that way. And not caring about anything. I sincerely apologized. But this new environment and friends and clique. Will I even be able to connect with them? Fit in? I don't know. Time will tell. Should I start talking to my old friend again?
This is hard. When you talk too much people hates you.when people don't talk, it is also a problem. )))))':


I caught you by my mouth :*

160407, the date I'll never forget. Every year, on this date, I'll look at my mom and see her solemn face. You wouldn't know or understand. This date is more important than anything else. Why. I'm still wondering why does my dad had to leave us so fast. I promised to continue the story a year ago. I'll let it pass. There are too many things to be said. I'll just know it myself. I don't need anyone's sympathy. No need for that.

Dad, if you should know we all miss you! <3 it has been four years since we last talk. I've started school for five days now. Wonder what it's like if you're still around. I love you dad! (: <3

I caught you by my mouth :*

Oh my, how long ago was my last entry? Have been going out
ALOT since I stopped working last Sunday. But one week is short ): & I'm starting school tomorrow. Welcome to new environment amirah! This is life!

I miss _____ <3 sigh. What is wrong with me. Nothing? I don't know. It feels really empty inside, somehow.

Anyway, I don't know if I'm ready for all these new challenges. New setback? New environment, new school, new friends and everything. What will happen after today? Will it be good or bad? I don't know.
I wish I could say it all now but I can't.

Anyway, I'm changing job. I've thought it through. I can't go another day being treated like a dog there. & there's another reason. Let's just say, it's a secret between me and my soul. Hopefully this new job I'm going to start in few months time will turn out good (:

I love you&, I miss you <3

I caught you by my mouth :*