10/22/2011 10:10:00 AM
Saturday, October 22, 2011
What Am I to do now? All I did was ask. & they have to beat about the bush and be 'secretive' about it. Was it even wrong to ask in the first place? I'm not even forcing. I don't know why but I feel that they are angry with me because of what I did.
Wasn't angry if they won't be going. I was angry because she had to be so secretive. she had to write on his paper to prolly ask if he's going or not. Then when I saw, she erased it off. What is that supposed to mean?
I'm not a fool to be fooled by you. I don't like it. Just say what's in your mind. I won't ask you to stay. Because it's your choice. & now you're thinking I can't take jokes? Far from that.
You remember you ever told me you'll do come back and study harder? Okay, still it's your choice. I'm just reminding you. It was a good intention. Not more than that. If you can't see it, then prolly, I've to stop trying and care more about myself. I've to start caring, loving, pitying myself more. Selfish to myself. So now, everything has to be me, me, me, me, then you. No more you, you, you, you, you, then me. I tried but since you find it as a chore, I'm withdrawing myself. In this situation no one is in the wrong or right. No bad or good guy.
I'm like that when I'm angry. I don't know how to express it well with words, except through actions. About the twitter thing, yes, I did that because I do act rashly when I'm angry. But, hey, at least you know what I'm feeling right? Like you said- twitter helps me to know what one is thinking and feeling.
Don't be guilty because you can't go for lesson. Because I didn't do anything to make you feel guilty. & of course, you don't have to do things you don't like just to satisfy my pleasure. Because it's a waste of everyone's time and effort. Do what you like, not what I or others like.
From then on, I'm never going to ask you ever again. It's all up to you.