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7/04/2012 01:42:00 AM

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

It sucks to be somewhere you know you don't belong. It sucks even more if you can't get to adapt to places at the shortest time. Especially when it's a long stay. In short, it sucks to be me. At least, for now.

I don't know why, but, it seems like after voicing out about the picnic outing, the people there seem to hate me even more. Already being hated for not being able to speak mandarin, and now, objecting to an 'idea'. is it wrong to voice out and tell you what's on my mind and understand my difficulties? Picnic in China? Easy for you, but, not for me. Where do I find food? This ain't Singapore. It's not easy to find Halal food there. At least. no pork no lard, NOOOOO. It's easy if we go to city area. You know? Nooooo. You only listen to what you say.

I have lots of difficulties here, but, I just kept quiet. I can tell you, I almost exploded. If not for my grades and for overall comments, I would have screamed at you. Already, giving me headaches when I realize we have language barrier, and now you want to control our weekends outing? I mean, it's fine. Once in awhile. Not every weekend. We are the 'aliens' in your country, let us have our own time to explore. It's different if we are here on an exchange programme like the Scotland students. Yes, you can do that. Why? Because we'll be there for only awhile. You get me?

You know, how angry I was past few weeks? But, I've no one to go to because basically no one understands me. My English. It's either really really bad or not up to your 66 marks standard. WHAT? I spoke to fast? No such thing. You didn't realize you speak just as fast in your own language, do you? YOU TELL ME IN MY FACE! NOT SAY IT AMONGST YOURSELF AND LET MY FRIEND HEAR IT! You get me? It sucks because I thought you guys understood what I said, all along. Turned out, I've been wasting my time. Really. Very pissed off.

IS THERE ANYONE HERE WHO REALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING? I SPEAK IN ENGLISH, AN INTERNATIONAL LANGUAGE. NO? ALRIGHT...

If you know it's hard for you, then you should know it's equally just as hard for me too. I'm already trying very hard. You guys are not even trying at all. There's this point of time where I feel like writing all these to you guys in the lab. So, you guys will do something about it and do better for future non-chinese students who'll be coming over in future.

Already your hygiene, traffic, etc is pissing me off. Actually, EVERY SINGLE THING HERE PISSES ME OFF!

I'm gonna hate on your people even more when I"m back in Singapore. Now, that I've seen it in your own country, I'll be extra evil. You guys are a show off in foreign countries, but, timid as mouse in your own country. ONLY in your country, you'll be served first if you're filthy rich. Not in Singapore. There's a system here.

I'm hoping no one will put my blog up on stomp for talking about the mainland people. Got to go. Good night!

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7/02/2012 06:50:00 PM

Monday, July 2, 2012

Hello, I'm coming back to Singapore in few days. Everything here is fine. Can't wait to be back though. Finally, got to eat rice here after like five or six weeks here. Fair enough, other than language barrier and difficulties in finding food in the first few weeks. Had lots of thoughts when I was here. Every night here is a reflection day for me. There's always something that I'm thinking about every night. No matter how much I try to avoid all that so I could sleep better, I can't.

Anyhoo, weather here is bad. First few weeks I was here, it's so cold and yeah, cold. Now that I'm going back to Singapore, it's really really hot. Before it was hot, it rained. The rain here is not like in Singapore. The rain here last for few days. Longest, three days. Drenched! ALL THE TIME!
When it's hot, it can go up to 40 degrees Celsius. That's how hot it is. Skype everyday with my family.

The days here made me reminisce about my childhood times. Some were funny, some were sad, but, overall I'm thankful.

Miss my family and friends so so much! Can't wait to be back and see all of them. Miss my home-cook food. Miss everything. Can't wait to be back for attachment in Singapore. I hope they give me a near, but, good place. Can't wait to be back in Parlour too. I miss my job too.

ANYWAY, I'M GETTING MONEY FROM THE GOVERNMENT FOR THE FIRST TIME, THIS YEAR! WOOHOOOO!

Will blog again real soon. Love you guys :* see you!