2012 is already coming to an end. To be honest, a lot has happened. I think I'm strong enough to go through all that and move on. Fought with almost everyone in my clique. But not at the same time. Misunderstandings; one after another. If you're not tired, I am. Really 😔

Of course, they are good things too. Like my birthday fell on Hari raya, 19 August 2012. It's like a double happiness. & I got what I wanted for Christmas. Polaroid piano 😁😁😁 thanks sissy. Annnnddd I managed to do a lot of shopping. Hehehe happy girl. I've lost a friend but I gain another. And the cycle continues. & I got to such up with some of my secondary school friends at syah's sister's wedding. Oh, how glad I am.

One thing that never change, my carelessness. Have been overlooking all of them and causing me disappointment. Finally, this year, I broke down because of my results. Yes, first time. I've need cried before. Because of my RESULTS. & they are all only test. But you know the hard work thy you've put in and all? It's like it has gone down the drain. I don't deserve to fail any of my tests. I overlooked my careless mistakes and when I got my result and check through, it really changes my mood. I don't know who else ever felt that way. Like you studied, but you still fail. You feel so useless and stupid. So , all you could do was to call someone. And cry. And for me, I'll drown my sorrows with froyo. Yes, call me weird. & I'm glad I've a froyo buddy and someone to confide to 😊 really glad. And encouragements from everyone, family and friends. No one ever saw me cry over my results. NEVER. Prolly, I've finally realize that importance of hard work. And FINALLY taking it seriously.

School. In a blink of an eye, it is coming to an end. Three more months an I'm graduating. There'll be some I'd miss and some I do not even want to remember. Most importantly, I'm taking all my memories with me. Good or bad. It's kind of sad because there'll be no more train rides with my favourites. I hope to still be in contact with them.

Fights. I've like more than three this year. Two of which I actually went physical and pull their shirt. Most definitely, I broke down on all the fights. Misunderstandings and assumptions. What did I tell you about those? They are mother of all evil, I'm glad cutiepiepeach stops assuming and ask. Now, I'm worried about another closest friend of mine. It's a misunderstanding to start with. I've explained and now he thought I'm blaming him. I don't know. I don't know if I'm ready to let go of my friendship with him. He has been there through thick and thin besides Karlid. It's really sad. I'm so disappointed(?) that I've become numb. You know, now, losing friend is like a daily routine for me. I don't know how to feel anymore.

Anyway, three more months. We'll see what will happen in between alright? There's nothing much I could do. Only pray and hope for the best.

Two weeks ago, selva's dad passed away. He went through a lot. & I'm glad the family let him go peacefully. I've yet visited him. What a friend.

I was so upset I shut myself down from everyone. I did not go to any meet-ups with my friends. Even, my friend's birthday. & at the same time, I'm down with fever. And my throat keeps having ulcer. Suspect it's tonsils, but I don't want to know.

Anyway, I just hope 2013 will be a better one for me. I don't know where I'll go after ite. I'll take whatever path that has been given to me. I leave it to fate. I'm mentally prepared. But, of course, I want to continue my studies in poly.

& I think it's time for my heart to move on from weirdos and heartbreaks. It's time to find another. My other half. Chey. Hahaha. This is it.

In 2013, it'll be my dad sixth year ): so many things happened at home. I cannot even breathe. I don't know who to go to and I don't know who's willing to lend me a listening ear and shoulder to cry on.

Anyway, I had a great time on Christmas Eve with my colleagues. Best Christmas dinner ever. Memories. Hehe. & I went to a bar for the first time. An outdoor one though. Hehehe


Alright, till my next update. Have been busy. Waiting for cutiepiepeach to return from oz and meet up for froyo.

As a #Leo your INSTANT STRESS-BUSTER is looking over old photos and remembering the good times you've had.

See, #Leo say "I'm tired " when they are actually sad.

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